Staytus

so this is how it has to be?
the space between you and me
sew my ears and burn my eyes
so i don’t have to hear your lies

take me to the ocean
i am ready to drown
a scream and a cry
all a muffled sound

retry the past
engage my line of sight
don’t be a hero
die staring into the light

no need to fear
absolute terror
no need to kill
absolute error
no need to thrill
absolute better
no need to fear
absolute terror

no need to fear
absolute terror
no need to kill
absolute error
no need to thrill
absolute better
no need to fear
absolute terror

doubt your mouth
heading down
you’re a while away
so don’t make a sound

i have to play my part
before i depart
finish what i start
break my own heart

exit wounds have a place you know
the rising tidal waves will grow
keep my head above the water
for i always wanted to be your daughter

no need to fear
absolute terror
no need to kill
absolute error
no need to thrill
absolute better
no need to fear
absolute terror

no need to fear
absolute terror
no need to kill
absolute error
no need to thrill
absolute better
no need to fear
absolute terror

take me to the other side
break me and open up my mind
shake me for the truth inside
wake me up and open up my mind

some things here are part of me
always here and meant to be
never meant to disagree
you will never be part of me

an echo in space
a line upon my face
an echo in space
we'll never see your face
an echo in space
cannot embrace
an echo in space
we'll never see your face again

free from a critical design
another not like its own kind
just a great deception
of a lustful infection

you gave this all to me
I applaud your indecency
can't wait to see your great decline
it might be the last of mine

an echo in space
a line upon my face
an echo in space
we'll never see your face
an echo in space
cannot embrace
an echo in space
we'll never see your face again

we'll never see your face again
we'll never see your face again
we'll never see your face again
we'll never see your face again

the thumping in my heart
is tearing me apart
aching to stop and start
my pulse is my only friend

worn out, sick, and tired
a thousand faces who I’ve admired
all of your blood rushes to me
you are my veins and my arteries

an impulse rushes through my chest
the beating I cannot resist
so many more will come next
chasing a fantasy that does not exist

an impulse rushes through my chest
the beating I cannot resist
a throbbing ache that never rests
has me bound by the wrist

oh, arrhythmia
oh, arrhythmia
oh, arrhythmia

I’m going hysterical
never felt so vulnerable
the beating in my head
is better left off unsaid

it’s not intentional
might not be ethical
I’m asking the hotline
for a flatline

an impulse rushes through my chest
the beating I cannot resist
so many more will come next
chasing a fantasy that does not exist

an impulse rushes through my chest
the beating I cannot resist
a throbbing ache that never rests
has me bound by the wrist

oh, arrhythmia
oh, arrhythmia
oh, arrhythmia

all it’s worth and all is lost
ending now what is a cost
open your heart and see
the stent between you and me

now don’t ever pretend you loved me
I can never be what you want me to be

an impulse rushes through my chest
the beating I cannot resist
so many more will come next
chasing a fantasy that does not exist

an impulse rushes through my chest
the beating I cannot resist
a throbbing ache that never rests
has me bound by the wrist

oh, arrhythmia
oh, arrhythmia
oh, arrhythmia

I can crawl away
but it's here to stay
everything I've lost
comes back anyway

hold me close and don't let go
did I lie? well I don't know
everyone has a place you know
stop breathing and just let go

all the words you say
won't make them crawl away
always here to bring
pain and suffering
never be the same
only one to blame
all the words you say
won't make them crawl away

don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me go
don't let me

it'll be okay
always here to stay
momentary bliss
holds me back anyway

I hold you in sympathy
dying alone doesn't matter to me
tearing apart all I've felt
save your ugly smile for someone else

all the words you say
won't make them crawl away
always here to bring
pain and suffering
never be the same
only one to blame
all the words you say
won't make them crawl away

always the same
who am i?
just one to blame
try to leave and try to stay
nothing else marks the decay

they hold a past for us to stay
in an open wound full of decay
is it enough to disobey
the rotten mouth which spouts decay

future's past turned away
art and truth lost in a haze
is it enough to disobey
the rotten mouth which spouts decay

we need it now
don't know where you've been
all in all lost in sin
try to see and try to do
everything comes back to you

they hold a past for us to stay
in an open wound full of decay
is it enough to disobey
the rotten mouth which spouts decay

future's past turned away
art and truth lost in a haze
is it enough to disobey
the rotten mouth which spouts decay

honest everything
can't you see me

they hold a past for us to stay
in an open wound full of decay
is it enough to disobey
the rotten mouth which spouts decay

future's past turned away
art and truth lost in a haze
is it enough to disobey
the rotten mouth which spouts decay

i hate myself more than you
trying to copy the things you do
when all is said and done
what on earth have i become?

i want to stay true
to myself
but i've become someone else
i want to stay true
to myself
but you've turned me into something else

don't die
you're always right
don't die
i'll never fight

to blindly wander across the world
i'm not your manic pixie dream girl
in search of what i dreamt of you
why is it so hard to commit to?

i want to stay true
to myself
but i've become someone else
i want to stay true
to myself
but you've turned me into something else

don't die
you're always right
don't die
i'll never fight

you hurt me so well
don’t you think I can tell
an emotional dullness
a crooked sense of forgiveness

maybe it’s time to wake up
maybe it’s time to wake up
maybe it’s time to wake up
maybe it’s time to wake up

I stay awake I cannot take it anymore
all the hate and the pain and open sores
I peel away all the skin that I tore
I stay awake I cannot take it anymore

I stay awake I cannot take it anymore
I stay awake I cannot take it anymore

I sink into another world
another place and time
where you can’t reach me
but now I can’t go back
to where I was
I dreamed a hundred years too long
and I woke up dead

wake up dead do it over again
wake up dead do it over again
wake up dead do it over again
wake up dead do it over again

I stay awake I cannot take it anymore
all the hate and the pain and open sores
I peel away all the skin that I tore
I stay awake I cannot take it anymore

I just want my chance at redemption again
again, again, again, again
I just want my chance at redemption again
again, again, again, again

go away i don't need you here
all that's wrong is faced with fear
the expectations of what i once had
they all keep coming back in the end
the end
the end
the end

i just want something to be proud of
but all i know is nothing else
i just need your validation
ripping apart how i felt

i'm not at smart as i used to be
maybe to you
maybe it's because i can never follow through
but i'm still the greatest fucking thing
that ever happened to you
why won't you leave me alone?

i just want something to be proud of
but all i know is nothing else
i just need your validation
ripping apart how i felt
don't let me die here

time runs out, time runs out, time runs out
time runs out, time runs out, time runs out
time runs out, time runs out, time runs out

everytime i look at your face
i want to hold you in my embrace
everytime i hear your voice
i feel like i have no other choice

look through my soul forever more
i’m falling into the nevermore
look through my soul forever more
i’m falling into the nevermore
look through my soul forever more
i’m falling into the nevermore
look through my soul forever more
i’m falling into the nevermore

i have a scar where my heart once was
why didn’t you choose me?
you’re a painful reminder
of what i want to be

i have a burning in my head
and i am wired to obey
the endless times i think of you
you’re all that matters to me

look through my soul forever more
i’m falling into the nevermore
look through my soul forever more
i’m falling into the nevermore
look through my soul forever more
i’m falling into the nevermore
look through my soul forever more
i’m falling into the nevermore

i’ll never let you go
i’ll never let you go
i’ll never let you go

look through my soul forever more
i’m falling into the nevermore
look through my soul forever more
i’m falling into the nevermore
look through my soul forever more
i’m falling into the nevermore
look through my soul forever more
i’m falling into the nevermore

nobody cares about me
my own source of dopamine
crawling from the place i rest
my mind lays here incompetent

emotionless cold stiff disgrace
a blank expression upon my face
i shine in a world of dirtiness
i matter when your world is meaningless
endless nameless strong again
you will never be my only friend

may god have mercy on your soul
all that is gold
is sure to fold

i can never see the light again
consumed by an appetite for sin
my life has come to an end
please be my only friend

heartache hotel
hell in a handbasket
so done and well
body in a casket

into the forest
behind the trees
i've given my life
bent on both knees

lurking around
circling my path
succumb to my
beautiful aftermath

you never served me well
i still think that i can tell
everyone is empty except for me

everything
all of it
nothing
none of it

everything
all of it
nothing
none of it

everything
all of it
nothing
none of it

everything
all of it
nothing
none of it

you stretch beyond
a thousand miles
innocent and feeble
like a child

fuck my smile
off my face
cut my tongue
words are hate

you never served me well
i still think that i can tell
everyone is empty except for me

everything
all of it
nothing
none of it

everything
all of it
nothing
none of it

everything
all of it
nothing
none of it

everything
all of it
nothing
none of it

a glimmer in my eye
don't you think i can try
go away from here
crawl away from here

i wanna know makes you tick
i wanna know what makes you sick
i wanna know what kills your mind
i wanna know how you died inside

it’s just not right how you
step all over me
i can never tell
are you a part of me?

you know it’s no use
i want you in my arms
but i can see
what you are doing to me

oh, please

i wanna know what you collect
i wanna know that you won’t reject
i wanna see you object
to what i wanna do to you

it’s just not right how you
step all over me
i can never tell
are you a part of me?

you know it’s no use
i want you in my arms
but i can see
what you are doing to me

oh, please

i don’t know what the hell i’ve been through
but every step that i take
brings me closer to you
i don’t know why
i play your game
it seems you are more
than i can take
every night i hope and pray
you’ll leave me alone
and it was all a mistake

why do you do this to me?
why do you do this to me?

are you really that far gone?
can you ever move on?
are you really that far gone?
can you ever move on?
are you really that far gone?
can you ever move on?
are you really that far gone?
can you ever move on?

nothing to say
nowhere to go
everything else ends up so
i feel so fake and faded
everybody else is jaded
what’s the point in anything?
i’ll never be as good as you
i don’t know why i try
i just want to-

burning pages from my manifesto
i don’t know what comes next
take your time and ridicule me
see how far that takes you

are you really that far gone?
can you ever move on?
are you really that far gone?
can you ever move on?
are you really that far gone?
can you ever move on?
are you really that far gone?
can you ever move on?